This is going to be way off-topic and something I have really gone back and forth with if I was going to write this. But decided you deserved to know why I have been so off and on with my posting.
As most of you that have been following me for some time now have noticed my posting is a little sporadic (to say the least haha). When I first started blogging at my old blog and when I first started this one I was posting all the time very rarely did I miss a few days. Well a few years ago I went into a bit of a depression ( something I really hate to admit) there were a couple of things going on in my personal life that I didn’t feel I had any control over and I let them just consume me. Although looking back there were several things that I could have done. I have always been a pretty strong person and have gone through a lot, I have no idea why this just knocked me flat. Some days it was all I could do just to get up and do the things that had to be done much less try and write or do some of the other things I used to enjoy. I packed on an extra 40 pounds and let a lot of things in my house and yard go. I missed out on doing a lot of things because I just didn’t have the desire or ambition to do them.
Well about a year ago something finally snapped and I knew I needed to something, I knew I couldn’t continue to live like this I needed to snap out of it and get back to living life. I had already wasted a few years that I won’t get back.
I will admit it hasn’t been easy I guess nothing really worth it is. I started making myself get up and do things I joined the fair board to give me something I had to show up for whether I wanted to or not. And I slowly started to commit to things that made me get out of the house and out of my comfort zone. I started taking my vitamins and herbs again on a daily basis starting trying to eat better ( still trying to completely cut out the sugar) and I started to tan again (I know I know )I used to tan several years ago and I love it it makes me feel so much better it is one bad habit I am probably going to keep now.
It has taken a while but I am finally starting to feel like have my old self back again and I haven’t felt this excited for things in a very long time. I do still every now and then have to talk to myself and push myself to do what I need to do but I am getting there. I feel like I am getting my Jam back.
Only bad thing is now I have several years I have to make up for. I have a ton of stuff in the house and yard that needs to be done and caught up on. Then there is that extra 40 pounds I have to deal with but I will get it handled like the old me would have done by jumping in and just doing it.
I have so many plans now, I want to get this blog built up and be a resource for people like I intended when I first started it and I want to start living life to the absolute fullness. So I may be a little slow getting started but I will be back to posting regularly now. Like I told my daughter the other day this is the best I have felt in a long time and I will be doing my thing now.