Overcoming Depression and Getting my Jam Back

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This is going to be way off-topic and something I have really gone back and forth with if I was going to write this. But decided you deserved to know why I have been so off and on with my posting.

As most of you that have been following me for some time now have noticed my posting is a little sporadic (to say the least haha). When I first started blogging at my old blog and when I first started this one I was posting all the time very rarely did I miss a few days. Well a few years ago I went into a bit of a depression ( something I really hate to admit) there were a couple of things going on in my personal life that I didn’t feel I had any control over and I let them just consume me. Although looking back there were several things that I could have done. I have always been a pretty strong person and have gone through a lot, I have no idea why this just knocked me flat. Some days it was all I could do just to get up and do the things that had to be done much less try and write or do some of the other things I used to enjoy. I packed on an extra 40 pounds and let a lot of things in my house and yard go. I missed out on doing a lot of things because I just didn’t have the desire or ambition to do them. 

Well about a year ago something finally snapped and I knew I needed to something,  I knew I couldn’t continue to live like this I needed to snap out of it and get back to living life. I had already wasted a few years that I won’t get back. 

I will admit it hasn’t been easy I guess nothing really worth it is. I started making myself get up and do things I joined the fair board to give me something I had to show up for whether I wanted to or not. And I slowly started to commit to things that made me get out of the house and out of my comfort zone. I started taking my vitamins and herbs again on a daily basis starting trying to eat better ( still trying to completely cut out the sugar) and I started to tan again (I know I know )I used to tan several years ago and I love it it makes me feel so much better it is one bad habit I am probably going to keep now.

It has taken a while but I am finally starting to feel like have my old self back again and I haven’t felt this excited for things in a very long time. I do still every now and then have to talk to myself and push myself to do what I need to do but I am getting there. I feel like I am getting my Jam back.

Only bad thing is now I have several years I have to make up for. I have a ton of stuff in the house and yard that needs to be done and caught up on. Then there is that extra 40 pounds I have to deal with but I will get it handled like the old me would have done by jumping in and just doing it.

I have so many plans now, I want to get this blog built up and be a resource for people like I intended when I first started it and I want to start living life to the absolute fullness. So I may be a little slow getting started but I will be back to posting regularly now. Like I told my daughter the other day this is the best I have felt in a long time and I will be doing my thing now.

2 Replies to “Overcoming Depression and Getting my Jam Back”

  1. Kellie

    Thank you for sharing that Connie. I empathize as I went through a deep depression years ago. So hard to get out of it, but oh so glad you are feeling better now! I really do find your posts helpful and needed, and I appreciate all your efforts here so much. Thank you again, Connie.

  2. Toni (in Niagara)

    Hi Connie,
    I’m so glad that you’re feeling better. Depression is a very serious illness and we tend to minimize it. Social stigma is still a big factor as to why we don’t talk much about it. It’s important to talk about depression and actively look for help. Depression does not mean that we are weak, lazy, uncaring, or crazy. Everyone has ups and downs, but when the downs affect our ability to enjoy life, help is needed. Dwayne Johnson, Lady Gaga, Bruce Springsteen, Buzz Aldrin, ……just a few examples of those who sought help with depression. It’s good to talk about it, find support, and know we’re not alone.
    I can empathize with the weight gain (65 pounds for me) and feeling the need to catch up on all of the things I missed doing. I don’t know about you, but I had all kinds of excuses for not getting anything done: it seemed easier to say I was too tired, feeling flu-ish, or too busy with something else, but in reality, I just could not manage to DO anything. I also could not ever get enough sleep. Turns out, I have sleep apnea and a CPAP machine has made a world of difference. However, I do have an anxiety disorder (similar to depression in a lot of ways) and still have difficulty sometimes. Medication helps. Making a concerted effort to not judge myself (kinda hard to do in a Pintrest/YouTube world!) is very helpful 🙂 I don’t mean to use your space as a personal platform – I just want to try to support your discussion, and to let you know that many folks are grateful that you are courageous enough to share your experiences. Please forgive me for over-stepping, but DAMN lady! – I think you’re a very strong and giving person!
    Best wishes always –